START w/hydration so yr quarter-century-old-now brain doesn't overheat and you'll be so golden is the infinite wisdom i learned in my nearly 3 months being 25
any time u do work towards it yr probably gonna get better.
and i mean. you've only been here what like 3 months don't start talkin like that now. If u do worse don't leave them alone til u do better. ask to go on missions. get what u want. this one lil LEADERSHIP may i ADD test isn't gonna like. determine yr entire future w the explorer division.
also ALMost every single explorer i've ever known are straight up idiots (affectionate, mostly) so if they can do this so can u
I've literally never worked this hard for a test before is this what it's like for school nerds it's exhausting
[...] I just want to earn it and not be like a dead weight or just have it because I want it because just because I want it doesn't mean it should happen
omg no i get that rn i'm sittin here reading my lil Microbiology textbook and it's just for fun and leisure so at least u have a reason
idt you'd let yourself be dead weight though. and i alllso don't think one test can rly show how you'd be like, useful in all field situations. Bet they don't even test for moles. just like idk. don't give up b4 it's started, that's silly.
so bottom line brains r trash n normally this is about where i'd tell u to get like, high and OUT of that stupid lil head but we are now big 25 yr old adults n thats PROBably counterproductive
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are you like. worried about them.
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Well standardised testing is a crock of shit actually so as long as u feel better its already better than last time.
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Last time I just went in and did it though like on a whim this time I've been trying
So if I do worse or something after I'm actually making an effort they're never going to actually want me out there and then why did I even come here
Sorry yeah maybe I am worried about them
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and i mean. you've only been here what like 3 months don't start talkin like that now. If u do worse don't leave them alone til u do better. ask to go on missions. get what u want. this one lil LEADERSHIP may i ADD test isn't gonna like. determine yr entire future w the explorer division.
also ALMost every single explorer i've ever known are straight up idiots (affectionate, mostly) so if they can do this so can u
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[...] I just want to earn it and not be like a dead weight or just have it because I want it because just because I want it doesn't mean it should happen
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idt you'd let yourself be dead weight though. and i alllso don't think one test can rly show how you'd be like, useful in all field situations. Bet they don't even test for moles.
just like idk. don't give up b4 it's started, that's silly.
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That all makes sense like logically and separate from everything but my brain's just like [...] idk
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so cool unfortunately
so bottom line brains r trash n normally this is about where i'd tell u to get like, high and OUT of that stupid lil head but we are now big 25 yr old adults n thats PROBably counterproductive
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High is for after if I do it now that'll be all sorts of other problems maybe